OK so here goes, I am on a weight loss journey. I know we have all said it a million times...

I am gonna go to the gym.
I am gonna lose weight
I will be healthy
ect ect ect

Then what do we do.... we head to the fridge and see what snacks we can eat, I guarantee you you didn't go pick celery sticks, or carrots, but in fact you opened the tub of ice cream, brake open that bag of chips, I know you too well, because I am you. I am the worst version of you!

The Biggest loser I watch faithfuly every week, and I am amazed how they change their lives in such a short time, how they lose the weight, and I say to myself I am gonna to it too, then as always I head to the kitchen and grab a snack while I watch these people exercise and eat healthy. I know in my head I wont be doing it, I wont go to the gym and I will continue to just survive.

Right now I am 209 lbs, the biggest I have ever been, again when I talk about my weight it seems I am always make jokes or excuses for it, I've been married 10 years, I have 3 kids, I lost one of my children, I moved, and yes these at one point may have been a good excuse, but not when my youngest would have been 5, when I am a stay at home mom whos kids are in school and "should" have the time to go to the gym, when I complain how bored I am living in Korea.

So no more excuses, no more reasons not to do it.

I want to be the best version of myself, the best mother, the best wife, I want my family to be proud of me and I want to be proud of myself for a change!